I am so exciting that I blog on Saturday night! That's how I know I'm getting old. Okay, so I really wasn't ever the party all weekend type. I'm a homebody by nature and so is Kyle. Both of us together doesn't really help things. I will admit to you, blog land, that this is not where I saw my life when I was in high school though.
Kyle and I knew each other in high school because we had mutual friends (and he briefly went to my church), but we weren't really close friends or anything until my senior year-ish (Kyle was a grade ahead of me in school. We went to different schools though.) I will readily admit that I didn't have the best impression of him. I knew that a lot of girls liked him and he was hot so I figured he must be a jerk (Don't judge people like this! People thought that I was a B* because I was quiet. My mom used to tell me that you can be pretty or quiet. You can't be pretty and quiet. You're welcome for sharing that, Mom!). Honestly, I can't even remember how we became better friends... I think the usual emo ways of the early 2000's : myspace,xanga, aim. I know it wasn't until the summer after my senior year of high school when he was home from school. I was still hesitant to have much to do with him because he was in his wild phase (my high school perception) and I've always been as boring as I am now. I always thought he was way cooler than me so he must be crazy and exciting, haha. Some people are naturally "cool". Kyle is, I am not. He will deny this to this day but that doesn't change it. It's why all of my friends asked about him back then. That summer was my only attempt at being more wild ( I felt like I should try it, like a rite of passage or something.."Those were my crazy years." Only mine is "Those were my crazy 4.5 weeks") All of that to say, I decided to give the whole "go after a bad boy" thing a shot.
We almost dated or something. There used to be stages of dating..like talking-->going out-->exclusively dating. Or something like that. Is it still like that now? "Oh did you hear? So and so are talking" I think you probably would've classified us as "talking."
Either way, we were pretty close friends for a bit. I was still hesitant. I could see parts of him that I really liked but I could tell that there were other things going on with him that were beyond me. A sort of distance. I didn't really know much about it at the time. There were a couple of incidences that I didn't know much about until we started dating again a year and a half ago. Things that meant a lot to him that I didn't even know I did. I was just myself. My attempts to be "wild" failed miserably. After one particular bad judgement call that sealed the deal on the end of my wild and crazy days, we went our separate ways. I thought that my previous impressions of Kyle being just an overall bad person were right on target and thought that he really never cared much about me at all.
Fast forward six years. He randomly posted something on Facebook about Brand New and I commented on it. We chatted from there and he invited me to hang out. Honestly, I am not sure why I agreed. I DID want to know what he had been up to and thought "Why not."
Best decision ever. I realized pretty quickly that he wasn't the same guy from so many years ago. Are any of us? Not that he was exactly a different person but we had both conquered some demons and did some growing up (as hopefully everyone does in 5ish years). All of the things that attracted me to him then were still there. We have been pretty much inseparable ever since. We are incredibly similar and no one knows me quite like Kyle.
It wasn't until about a month after we started dating (for real this time) that we shared our different perceptions of our beginning and demise the first time. I thought I was a blip on his radar when actually I had made quite the impression (thats the correct boyfriend answer right?). The first go around wasn't meant to be timing-wise, but it had to happen exactly how it did for us to end up in the place we are now. I will never forget how I felt when we finally put our different pieces of the puzzle together. It's the first time I have really ever felt like there are powers at be and things that happen that you don't have control over. Things will be how they are meant to. If we didn't have the deep feelings for each other (that neither of us knew about from back then) than I don't think we would have let each other in so quickly. He was recently out of a long-term relationship and I was not in a looking-for-a-boyfriend spot.
But alas, here we are. With two cats no less! You would think the cats were my idea but both were actually Kyle's. He turned himself into quite the cat guy! Although I think it's really that we both just really love animals in general. Cats worked for the apartment situation he was in when we got them. I can't imagine being anywhere else with anyone else. I get to hang out with my super hot very best friend every day who means a lot to me (and has for a really long time)
Disclaimer: I asked Kyle recently about how much about him he was okay with me sharing on this blog and he gave me a lot of freedom. I thought I would test those boundaries tonight with this entry. I hope I didn't embarrass you too much!
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