Perfectly Perfect

Long time, no see eh? Sorry about my absence. I've either been busy or had absolutely nothing going on, therefore nothing to write about. But, I don't want to get out of the blogging habit, so here I am!

I'll be honest....I've been a mostly busy trying to keep my head on straight. It's no secret that I can get a little obsessive. Sometimes Kyle has to step in and snap me back to normal. What usually happens is that I get some kind of set of rules in my head and I get obsessed with following them and then I get stressed out when I feel like I can't follow through. That's where Kyle steps in and says.."Nobody said you have to exercise this many times a week....or read these books...or eat those foods..or do those things." Or whatever my current kick is. And then I'm like oh yeah! I  can change the rules! This usually happens after some sort of crying breakdown.

That whole paragraph makes me sound a little whacko but in letting this blog be full disclosure, I am going to leave it. Please tell me that some of you are this neurotic?!? No? I can't help it. That's just how my brain works. I like structure and rules and I'm REALLY HORRIBLY AWFUL pretty bad with change.

Weakness

1. Doesn't handle change well.

2. Total Rules Girl

Strength

1. Self Aware

2. Total Rules Girl

Seriously, it took Kyle probably a whole year to get me to change my Subway sandwich order. And I had never even considered that you could get more than one type of soda from the machine. Living on the edge over here guys!

That's the real "rule" that I need to get stuck in my head! The ironic part is that I actually have a tattoo that says "grace" as my own personal reminder...I need to pay better attention! I am never going to be perfect and I can't let myself feel guilty or anxious about when I constantly fail at attempting it.