Delete it

Sorry to have gone MIA for so long! We've been busy and tired and I just haven't had a whole lot to say. Work is busy and I'm in a "put my head down and get through it" mode. We've been busy with our wedding stuff and family wedding stuff and life! I'm hoping to have some more engagement pictures to share soon! 

Instead of talking about horrible things happening in the world lately....

Let's talk about how hard it is to be a lady for a second.

Then let's talk about how hard it's probably not to be Kim Kardashian. 

Yes, people are talking about how big she is getting with her baby bump. Honestly, she is. I think she should embrace it. I think it's her come uppance  for letting magazines report for years that she wears a size 2. I've been in a lot of stores and tried on a lot of pants and there is no freaking way in any universe that Kim K has ever gotten size 2 pants around that butt. NO FREAKING WAY. Khloe has always gotten crap for being the "bigger" sister but ya know what? They're all more normal-ish looking women than your average (probably really hungry) celebrity.

 

 

What the whole "k" bunch should have been doing from the get go is saying "yes we have curves and that's okay." Because they're all still absolutely beautiful. What an opportunity to stand up for girls and say you don' t have to look like you're about to die in order to be beautiful. 

Getting more in to exercise and cleaning up my diet has shifted my focus. I think about how good I feel and how much stronger I'm getting. Of course there are still days (okay, a lot of days) that I look in the mirror and want to change something because I'm a girl and I can't help it. I will always be my biggest critic. But then the next day I can look in the mirror and see a muscle showing through that I haven't seen before. 

I'm never going to have the stick thin boyish model figure. I'm not built that way. But I can tell you that I never had abs. Now I do. I never used to have that dip at the top of my shoulders. Now I do. I never used to have little dimples in the back of my upper back. Now I do. I never used to have any definition in my legs. Now I do. 

A year ago I couldn't do ten girl push ups. Now I can even do some real ones. A year ago I couldn't run one mile. Now I can run 5. Haven't tried to run more than that yet. Boring.

For every "I'm not good enough" thought in my day, there's another "I feel good or strong or healthy or loved" thought. 

Progress. Not Perfection.

I feel really comfortable in my own skin lately. I feel comfortable in my life. Kyle and I were talking about this the other night.  It came up when I was questioning whether or not to delete a "friend" from facebook. Kyle asked "Does it/he/she add negativity to your headspace?" Yes. "Delete". I feel like that's kind of what I'm doing in my whole life right now. Does whatever add to my life in a positive way? No? Deleted.

 On the opposite end of the spectrum, I have been actively seeking things that do add to my life in a positive way. See activities above. I'm loving having my bike in working order again. Kyle and I have been spending some major weekend time on our bikes. Since we don't really have windows in my office, I have found that I majorly miss the sun. I usually bring my lunch and eat at my desk so I don't see/feel the outside air until the end of the day! ( I know I could eat outside or walk or something but it's a hassle to take my food and I usually catch up on my blogs at lunch because I've switched up my morning routine). I've added drinking more water and way less diet coke (I sleep better!). I've changed up my mornings to add more sleep.  I'm actively trying to invest in my friendships that add to my life and get rid of those that don't.

 Does whatever add to your life? No? Delete it.