Balance

What a fantastic three day weekend. It came at the perfect time. I feel more energized for this week than I have in awhile.

I know everyone struggles with this but I have just felt blah lately. It's hard to be the perfect everything all of the time. There just aren't enough hours in the day. I'm (and by me, I mean everyone) supposed to be able to work out every day, work hard with tough kids every day, have  (healthy) dinner planned and made in the evenings, watch my shows, read a book, spend quality time with my fiance, d0 whatever chores need to be done, etc etc. Now I know I don't actually have to do all of those things every day but if I had my way I that's what I would want to accomplish every day. And I don't even have any children. Hats off to you that do.

My workouts were kind of blah too last week. If I'm not able to get to the gym by 4pm, it's not going to happen ( see long list of other things I feel like I should do above). I was gun-ho about waking up early last week and going before work but that didn't happen either. I need time to wake up and eat breakfast and all of that jazz or I'm worthless in the gym anyways. I did get my butt kicked by Jillian at home a few times though. Her videos are hard! 

 I put a lot of pressure on myself and I can get stuck in obsessive brain loops. I start feeling guilty if I didn't work out enough this week or if I ate too much junk. I feel guilty if I had too many bad sessions with students at work or didn't make enough real meals throughout the week. 

I'm trying to be better about finding balance. I know I don't have to read but it makes me feel less stressed if I find time for it.  It's something that I really love. It makes me feel good to get some exercise in for the week but I have to be okay if it's an off week. 

Kyle and I have both been trying to be better about what we can do at home to make our days overall easier and less stressful. We try to clean a little every day so that it doesn't build and overwhelm us. He's awesome about cleaning up the kitchen ( something that I hate to do) and I try to stay on top of the laundry. We used to be bad about letting clothes stack up in the bedroom but now we both clean up a little every night so that it's always clean.

The point of all of this rambling is that we all have to let ourselves off the hook sometimes. We can't do everything all of the time and be everything all of the time.